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The only difficulty is that you are a girl named Eliza, who attends the prestigious Foster Academy that must preserve its reputation in a time of financial crisis. This contemporary realistic novel tells the story of Annie and Eliza and is an honest look at the growth of their feelings for each other, feelings they must keep a secret from their families. Eliza has the added complication of having to maintain a public persona as the president of the Foster student council while focused on her feelings for Annie. The two explore New York and their own hearts and lives in this contemporary problem novel.
Analysis:
In an untitled prologue, Garden uses a letter from Eliza to Annie to set the stage of the plot. As was the case with her other letters, Eliza wonders how Annie is doing. Toward the end of this letter, Eliza mentions two things: that she has written and not sent other letters to Annie, and that before she does, she has to “work through it all again—everything—the bad parts, but the good ones too…” (5). At this point, readers may wonder what has happened between Eliza and Annie. Have they caused their estrangement? Have others? Can they see each other? Is Annie even in California, or has something else happened to her? While readers learn that Eliza is from Brooklyn and now attends MIT in Cambridge, Massachusetts, they do not learn specifics of Annie, creating a mystery to be resolved.
The story, narrated by Eliza, thickens somewhat on the first page of the first chapter, when Eliza quotes her English teacher about the correct way to tell a story. Readers learn that the letter is in the present and that the meat of the novel is a flashback. Ms. Widmer from the private Foster Academy taught Eliza to “start with the first important or exciting incident and then fill in the background” (6), and she does just that, opening with meeting Annie at the Metropolitan Museum of Art.
For a story about a first love, the plot seems fairly predictable. The girls meet, they have feelings for each other they cannot explain, they meet again, they’re still not sure, they begin spending as much time as possible together, they meet each others’ families, they seem confused, they touch shyly, they begin to realize they’re falling in love and become more overtly physical, they question their feelings, they have inevitable arguments, they make up, and, finally, they find a way to spend some time alone. All along their feelings are secret, but in the anonymity of New York, they find a setting that allows them to grow together.
The "problem" reaches its peak when their relationship becomes public, when they are found out by the school secretary and one of Eliza’s classmates. The rest of the story becomes a case of dealing with the fallout. Eliza’s education is jeopardized, her family must come to grips with her sexuality, and, when Eliza does return to school, she must deal with a variety of reactions from her classmates. At this point in the novel, Annie has disappeared from the action, except as the intended recipient of Eliza’s letters. Garden's decision to focus on how Eliza handles her emerging sexual awareness suggests that in order to participate in a relationship, people must understand themselves first.
Excellent plots need believable complications. In addition to the ones (and there are enough to make the book compelling) between the girls as they develop their relationship, the complications center on the Foster Academy, a private school in economic straits. While the minor characters not connected with the school seem to be drawn with a bit more than one dimension, Mrs. Poindexter, Ms. Baxter and even the student Sara, are little more than predictable cardboard cutouts. Mrs. Poindexter wants to preserve Foster, Ms. Baxter is pretty much her toady, and Sara just cannot begin to understand how a girl her age can have feelings for another girl.
Perhaps Garden uses these minor characters to portray a sector of society and how it views homosexuality. She seems to be reminding her audience that some people cannot accept others and are even diminished in their lack of acceptance. To make this point more believable, she could have had these three characters interact with Eliza or others in a more empathetic manner. They do not. Societal acceptance has to wait until the “trial” scene at the Board of Trustees. Though Mrs. Poindexter makes her case, she is cast as a belligerent and misguided person when other adults—the trustees and Eliza’s parents—support Eliza.
A final feature of the plot is the inevitable witch hunt occurring at Foster once the girls’ secret is revealed. In this case, Ms. Widmer and Ms. Stevenson, two lesbian teachers at Foster whose house provided the safe place for Annie and Eliza, are fired. Gardner reminds readers that someone must take responsibility for influencing Eliza, and these two women, about whom there were always rumors at school, seem to accept their fate. In a meeting just after their dismissal, they remind Eliza of the importance of love and also express their disappointment at society’s treatment of gay people. Eliza heeds the first of these messages, and all readers would do well to heed the second message.
HIGHLY RECOMMENDED (High School and up): Note that some people may find the homosexual content objectionable.
Review Excerpts:
As a YA problem novel (the problem being social attitudes, not the relationship), it's par for the times, an ideological step beyond those reassurances that one such experience doesn't seal your destiny. The old bats at school, stereotypes that they are, at least provide some action. (Kirkus Reviews)
Garden’s novel, first published in 1982, has become a classic of young-adult literature: the first lesbian love story. Pre-Annie, YA novels with GLBTQ content had treated homosexuality as little more than a problematic form of sexual expression…Though, in retrospect, parts of the novel may seem melodramatic and the treatment of its antagonists a bit one-dimensional, the emotional content remains vividly realized, authentic, and relevant to the questioning hearts of today’s teens. (Booklist, July 1, 2007)
Garden's exceptionally well-rendered tale concerns two teenage girls who fall in love with each other. (Publishers Weekly, September 14, 1992)
Awards & Recognition:
Nancy Garden, 2003 Margaret A. Edwards Award Winner
Booklist Reviewer's Choice, 1982
American Library Association (ALA) Best Books, 1982
American Library Association (ALA) Best of the Best lists, 1970-83